First reaction is closest to the Truth

And mine is "o.k. i am finally writing". I always wanted to but I kept waiting for the right time, sounds more intellectual than "had no clue how to". A good advice that I got once was to keep the opening short so as people dont loose track(ever heard of "short public memory") but interesting enough that they should want more. So my first words of inner wisdom to fellow living beings capable of communication, when thinking about if what you should do or did in any situation consider your first reaction towards the situation. That is the closest you'll get to what you feel and then decide what NEEDS to be done because if you look at things in retrospect you'll tend to twist up the facts in order to justify your actions.